Its amazing how most of us are so scarred by our traumatic entry into adulthood that
we dare not really allow ourselves to remember how we felt back then. People
convinced us it was normal to be traumatized and we accepted that. Every day, 9 out
of 10 human energy fields I make medicine for, have clear indications of trauma
experienced in the pubescent years.
It appears that a majority of all hormonal
imbalances that lead to cancers of the reproductive system, wrong body hair patterns,
sleep cycle disturbances, clinical depression, skin cell health problems, body image
imbalances and body weight imbalances originate in trauma that happened in the
years around puberty.
Around puberty - usually between the years 7 to 13/14;
1) We form our idea of how we as adult men or women will be treated in exchange for the duties we discharge and the attitude we have to others
2) We also form an idea of what treatment we will accept in our adult life ahead
If this idea we formed then, was one that made us willing to accept abuse of any
kind, or conform to ideals we didn't agree with deep down, our body rebelled right
then causing what is called an 'hormonal rebellion'. A hormonal rebellion is the body
producing stress hormones to combat what it considers unfair pressure or treatment -
even if it isn't actually happening yet. Stress hormones cause rushes of sebum to
surface skin cells causing all manner of eruptions there, imbalances in the hormones
of the gut causing digestive problems (and weight problems later on), hair, teeth and
bone fragility as well.
Hormonal Rebellion also includes the production of huge amounts of the male
hormones (like testosterone) as a sort of preventative 'in case I am attacked' but this
huge over-production doesn't do anyone - male or female - any good, as the body tends
to swing towards the other extreme every now and then to cope. In men this causes
emotional volatility, submissiveness and agression in bouts and uncontrollable
physical energy in phases. In women it causes over-defensiveness, painful periods
and hyper-sensitivy in phases.
If we are still carrying these 'hormonal rebellion' patterns, we can relieve our bodies
of the stress by allowing ourselves to unconditionally remember how we felt during
those first years as 'men' or 'women'. We need to ask ourselves, "What did I think was
expected of me as a woman/man? Is that in keeping with who I want to be as a
woman/man? Is that fair to me as a human being?"
We need to accept ourselves and our sex even though we may not have had a role
model we follow. We still have our DNA, our own body and feelings to guide us in being natural women and men.
To help realize that we are not alone, here are a few examples of the situations
people have healed from to face life as men and women again.
(Note: Names removed, Spelling, Grammar and Punctuation corrected.)
A- Bangalore, India Female, Age 22
Healed from Cardio Myopathy, Angina Pectoris, Severe Alopecia, Lower leg atrophy
(caused by constant confinement to bed), Hadn't ever had a period before age 22
In my family the women were treated very different from the men. My sisters were
avoided by the men of the family even our father and brother, when they had their
period. I didn't know this because I was a child then but I could feel that something
wrong had happened. I knew that if I got older it would happen to me too and it
would end my life. I began to hate my mother and sisters because I didn't want to
become like them. I now know that I was prepared to even die before going through
that terrible experience. Because of falling so ill I was treated like a child long after I
was a teenager - my father took me to school and college and hospital. I looked like a
boy more than a girl and was proud of it. But my suffering and constant fear of
hospitals, needles and medicines made me hate myself at the same time. My body
always smelled of strong medicines. All this was happening and I didn't know it.
Now I decided to live as God made me. My healing took two years but I am totally
different from inside out. My parents love me and my father cried when we got the
hospital report without any more complications. I wore salwar kameez instead of
pyjamas to my sister's wedding and none of our relatives recognized me. I want to
heal more, become a teacher and help girls to grow into women without being afraid.
F, Indiana, USA Female, Age 28
Healed from: Severe Trauma in the Brain - Pituitary dysfunction, ADD, Hormonal
My father had a roving eye for every female that walked by. I guess I didn't want to
be leched at like that. So I hid myself and hoped to be as male as possible, win his
respect I guess. I never complained about any of those 'girly' things, was always there
for others when they needed me. I looked to myself like an animal in the mirror - not
a woman - but I kept with that, felt safer that way. Hurt me more than I knew.
M, Hot Springs, USA Male, Age 44
Healed from; Fluid Retention (full body), Muscular weakness - back and legs,
Depression, Bipolar Affective Syndrome, Kidney weakness, Damage to lungs caused
by Smoking, Asthma
I didn't have my Dad around growing up, or an uncle or any male worth respecting
or looking up to. The Presidents were all I had and they didn't set very good
examples either. I formed my opinion of men as 'scourges on the face of the earth'
who made women pregnant and disappeared only to appear drunk one day, try to
get laid and disappear again. When I became a teen my own mother started looking
at me with suspiscion. It was always 'Don't be like that man' or 'Try to be better than
that man' and it was hell. I couldn't down a glass of punch without feeling guilty for
not sipping it like the girls did. Strangely I had no clue about what was going on on
the inside, fell in love, got married, got divorced (miserable sex life) and then fell too
out of shape and low on self-worth to consider myself worth dating. Took all that for
me to find out what I'd been through. I work as a counsellor now, for boys. I tell
them 'Don't wait to yell or punch or scream. Just do it where no one gets hurt and
forget about it.'
T, Aspen, Canada Female, Age 19
Healed from Partial Paralysis, Severe Period Pain, Hormonal Imbalance
I used to play with my brothers till I started developing breasts. I was only 11 then
but I was teased mercilessly about it. I was left out after that, had to go out cycling or
skating on my own. I am quite attractive and have had a string of boyfriends - all
traumatic experiences - the wrong people for me. I guess I felt like I had to prove
something about myself to others, like being me isn't good enough without any
added perks. I've changed since I started healing emotionally. I have this sort of
peace about me and being woman that I've never had. My Mom always had a string
of lovers to prove her worth maybe I got that from her for a while.
T, New York, USA Female, Age 33
Healed from; PCOS (Poly cystic Ovarian Syndrome), Lymphatic Cancer, Severe
Pigmentation on Face, Weight Imbalance
I grew up with no role models male or female that I could trust or talk to. I was
played by my parents against each other, then my siblings. I had no life or being
outside of bringing the cash in on time and keeping the place tidy so everyone else
could go on with their social lives. I was supposed to be fat, ugly and 'not the loving
type'. They was all wrong. I was just suppressed and didn't know it.
I woke up one day and said enough is enough and I walked out and got me a life. I
was down with various sicknesses but I kept going because I knew I was going to
find out what was causing them and fix them. I prayed to the Lord and he kept me
He sent me a man who is worth respecting and who loves me for me. They said I
couldn't have no child because I'm too fat and had cancer but I knew it couldn't be. I
took energy medicine and a whole lot of healthy juices and walked miles every day.
I dug up my life without shame and I healed. I had my first baby last year and
another one is on his way. I have brought two beautiful babies into this world and I
am loved. I pray for every woman and every man out there who thinks their ugliness
is because that's how it is. There's no one born ugly. We make ourselves ugly because
we think that's how it is, that we need to be that way to keep living with our people.
T, Canada Male, Age 78
Healed from; Retinosis, Eye Muscle Degeneration (slow blinding), Psoric
Arthritis of 32 years
I did not think it possible to be healed at my age with the lifestyle I have had. I
remember being taught that a man brings in the bread and the woman keeps house.
When my wife passed on I could not take care of myself or our home. I nearly
smoked myself to death. Our children came over in shifts to help. I began to LOSE
VISION and waited every day to DIE. I was trained to bring the money in and leave
the rest to my woman. I was taught not to ever enjoy anything, JUST DO MY DUTY.
Its what a REAL MAN was according to my father. My marriage drained me even
though I loved my wife and she loved me.
Your medicine got me undoing these ideas I have accumulated. They date back to my early teenage years. I now manage the
chores and have two cats for company. I enjoy my LIFE. My eyes have stopped going
bad, I have no pain from the arthritis and don't care for painkillers or sleep
medication. I go on long walks and watch the TREES and SQUIRRELS. My children
find me inspiring. I used to make them GUILTY for leaving old Dad all alone back
home. Now they love coming back home. I have HOT CHOCOLATE ready for them,
just like their Mother used to. Life is moving again here. I have CABLE TV now and
watch travel shows that take me to beautiful places without the worry of travel
and money. I don't know why I learnt SO LATE that a man has the right to enjoy
life, I wish I had learned before. I'm making it up to MY WIFE now, she is with me on
my journey of LIFE.